With a flick and a pull the minty twists in the wind and the wrapper becomes loose. I pop the mint into my mouth and slowly flatten the paper in my hands. Taking a corner i slowly rip the paper from one side to the other, turning the paper i repeat until I'm left with a single string of paper where once I had a sheet.
I see reflections of my life of late to this process. Taking something that i enjoy, stripping it bare, then attempting to turn it into something it wasn't originally.
I burned another friend and seem unable or unwilling to mend the bond between us. Why do i push the people who matter to me away. Is it a protection mechanism or am i just unable to allow more than the singular person in at a time. Can it be that i require my full attention to someone to guarantee loyalty or am i so shut off from everything around me that only a tiny hole can be sustained in my armor. I often feel i haven't enough to offer the people around me that would justify time and effort spent on both our behalf's.
I'm in a tech conference all week and i can feel my energy being drained. I need a out. Maybe it's time to start running again.
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